I await You, naked, spreadeagle
Hiding nothing,
Showing joy

So I think…

But You know me too well
My body, thoughts, feelings, beliefs are façades, obstacles to
My progress,
My journey,
My healing.

Your nude body approaches mine
Eyes blazing, You look deep into mine.
In Love,
In Grace,
In Power.

“You asked for Healing.
It comes in removing what does not serve.
It comes with discipline. It comes with pain.
It comes with change.
This is what you prayed for.”

I shudder as His whip handle touches me
My body, my mind, my emotions, my soul,
Inspecting every part of me.

Dear God!
You can see everything!
My shame of/in me
My hiding my power
My unwillingness to change

We are naked, aroused
Nothing hidden between us
I sweat in anticipation,
Of the ordeal to come.
You sweat in anticipation,
Of the joyous healing to follow.

I hear the swing of Your whip
My body is open and exposed.
So is my soul
Captured in the beauty of Your eyes
Awaiting you, my Lord.

Swoosh, swoosh, CRACK

The pain tears through me
I close my eyes and scream!
My body strains in its bondage
What seems an eternity.

CRACK

Another stripe of pain marks me
Opens me, opens my eyes
The fire in my God’s eyes
I see Him smile, my mind races.

My bondage, my shame, all mine own
My thoughts bound by ‘proprieties’
Hiding me, hiding my gifts
Hiding from the Universe.

My body fully open
To my God of Healing Discipline
Amethyst overlays my vision
My mind exposed.

CRACK

I scream, I cry
The first façade falls
He pulls my head up and grins.

My mind reels
Unable to hold back
It clears, I begin to understand.

Emotions confused
Roiling, building, intense
How dare He! I love Him!

My body exhausted
Mind clearing, emotions raw
He is unyielding.

CRACK

My body dances
In Pain, Aroused.

Mind in whiteout
Clearing, Knowing.

Emotion exploding
Encompassing Paradox.

Soul touched
Recoiling, Protecting.

Body, mind, emotion, soul
He tears away what holds me back.

CRACK

I hang exhausted, open, accepting.

Mind learning, gathering, deciding.

Emotions flowing, feeling, free.

My soul cries, mourning, yearning.

He feels my change, the stirrings of healing.

The whip drops from His hand
Embracing me
I feel him on my shoulder, cock, shoulder, and forehead
Heart to heart, touching me all over.
The blessing given, received
Nothing between us
He kisses me.

I am released from my bondage
I curl, fetal, around His body
He carries me to His bed
And lays me softly down.

My eyes open and see the joy in His
He embraces me, allows me to discover
The beginning changes within me
To start to fit me together again.

I sigh into the pain
My God explores me
With lips, hands, mind and soul.
And I explore him.

I begin to understand
His joyous healing
His gift to me.

The drama of evolution-
Change often comes with
Gnashing of teeth
Wailing, Screaming
Painful and Bloody
On all the realms.

The drama of evolution-
With change often comes
Many possibilities
Choice, Growth
Chance, Progress
New Ways of Being
On all the realms.

Now, with my God,
the Purple God of Healing
Together
We have brought forth change
In me, In Him.

And in the aftermath
In joyous healing
Such sweet, long, joyous healing.

We bring forth, one from the Other
Strengthening, Building Intensity
Love, Energy, Power
Unable to hold back any longer
Reaching Our crescendo, Our climax
Our starry seed explodes from Us
The sparks of Our creativity pour
Across the Sacred Cosmos
Upon Each Other.

As I return to myself
Held in His wondrous embrace
My God, My Peacock Angel
Whispers in my ear-

“I am with you.
I will be here for you.
Every time you must do this.
This time, next time, all the times.
I will do this for you.
I am with you.”

With gratitude, I kiss
His chest, His heart
I honour my Purple God of Healing